Thursday, December 02, 2010

Dipping my toe in the water

I'm still here.

Let's just say, I'll be very very happy to see the end of 2010.

A year ago my mother was diagnosed with cancer. My world was shattered. My mother is the greatest person I ever knew. Very very funny. Such a strong woman. She was my hero.

She fought the fight until August 9th, 2010. The saddest day of my life.

When my mother got sick any sparks of creativity I had were extinguished.

I packed up my sewing machine and supplies (not an easy task!) and turned my sewing room into a reading room.

Last week I felt like knitting, so I pulled out a pair of socks I've been knitting for quite a while now. They are not done yet, but I can't tell you how good it feels to just sit and knit.

Then, I decided that I miss my sewing machine. So I dragged that out and although I don't have a place for it anymore, I intend to make room for it in my "reading" room.

I miss blogging. Blogging was such a big part of my life for so very long. I would post something and within hours my mother would call with her comments. We'd laugh, she'd e-mail links to my entries to her friends so she could brag about what I'm doing. *sigh* I miss that.

So, I'm dipping my toe in the water.

I'm not sure what the future holds. All I know is that I want to knit. I want to sew. I want to make soap. I want to make note cards. I want to blog. I want to read blogs. I haven't wanted to do any of these things in a VERY long time.

13 comments:

Funky Finds said...

So good to see a blog post from you! You've been missed in Blogland :) Hugs! Jessica

beki said...

I'm so,so very sorry! I can't even imagine what you've been goign through.
Do know that you are welcomed back here with open arms.

mudmaven said...

Making and creating helps with healing. Go with what your heart tells you. Doing will help honor in ways that grieving cannot. So wonderful to see you back. ~chris

Kim West said...

good to see you back. Take it easy, do what feels right to you, not because it is expected.

lera said...

Welcome back. I miss your mother, too. She was a great lady and I am very happy that I had the chance to meet her. I think of her often. [Especially as I was reviewing my Christmas card list last night :-(]

Should I make you jealous and tell you that I made two batches of soap last week? hee hee

Anne said...

I'm so sorry for your heartache. I lost my mom to ovarian cancer in 2003. She was my best friend. Seven years later and I still get the sudden urge to call her to tell her something. I'm glad you allowe yourself time to grieve. You've been missed.

Felicia said...

big squeezes!

Mary Sarah said...

I'm so sorry. I can't imagine how hard this has all been for you. Do what feels right. I'm so glad to hear from you. I've missed you.

katek said...

missed your blogging...so sorry about your mother....

Debbie said...

I'm so very sorry to hear about your mother.

It's good to see you back in blogland.

rohanknitter said...

I'm so sorry for your loss....it's a hard, hard thing to walk through.

Feli said...

Yeay.... a blog post!

I am sorry to hear about your mom. (HUGS).

I hope blogging will make you feel a little bit better.

Redvispa said...

I'm so sorry for your loss. And really nice to see a new post from your blog. It was one of the first sewing blogs I discovered a couple years ago when I started sewing, and I've enjoyed reading about your different projects. Best wishes.